Memories

So many years had passed.Things had changed from the last time I set foot in this place I once called 'home'.What pushed me to leave this place at that time?Walking down the path that lead to an old house at the end of town,I tried recalling the reasons I had for wanting to move away from here so many years ago.Somehow,I just couldn't find anything that clicked.All I remembered was that I was so determined to leave.Reaching the moss green door of the old building,anticipation filled me.Would things still be the same?or did this place change as much as the town had?I turned the slightly rusted doorknob and pushed the door open.It creaked open slowly,eventually revealing the place that was my childhood home.I cautiously stepped in,stepping on the old wooden floor covered with a thick layer of dust and grime.Wherever I walked,I left footprints.I brought my camera out and quickly took a picture of my footprints.Then,I shifted my attention to the room around me.The sofa was just as dusty as the floor.All the furniture in the room was exactly where I had left them last time,except they were in very bad shape.They cushions were moth-eaten,wooden tables and legs of the chairs were victim to termite attacks.The curtains had holes all over creating a very fairytale effect around the room wherever the rays of sunlight peeked through.I remembered how I used to play in the living room with my pet dog.I remembered how my mom used to sit on the sofa and tell me stories about her childhood.I remember my dad tickling me as I was lazing on the sofa.I actually remembered them!All those long forgotten memories were always with me.I just never bothered reflecting on them and remembering them.Tears began to prick at the corner of my eyes.I'd pushed my family away right after high school.I never bothered keeping in touch with them.I was so intent on being as far away as possible from them that now,when I'm longing for them,it's too late.They're gone.I never appreciated them,the home I had,the love we shared together,the memories we created together.Will I ever be able to find them again?Will they ever forgive me?Will they ever love me again?

To be continued...