Frustration

Why do you cause yourself so much hurt?
Do you enjoy being sad and alone?
Can't you just open up and let your own sister help?
You cry,but when someone offers a hand,you completely ignore it?
What's the point of shedding those tears?
You beat yourself up over the mistakes that you've made,
You don't give your own self a chance.
If you can't love your own being,
How can you claim to love others?
Troubles that are so tiny,practically microscopic,
Are turned into problems as wide and unlimited as the sky.
How long more till you completely break yourself?
How long more till you actually accept the love around you?
Do you plan on building your life on hurt,revenge and sadness?
I don't know what else to do or say,
All I can do now is pray.
I love you so much!
Please know that,my sister.

Sanctuary

She screams,trying desperately to let all of her frustrations out.Over and over again it seems like she's making the same mistakes.Finally,she stops,panting.Her throat feels raw and painful.Tears stinging in her eyes as she tries her hardest not to let them fall.Thoughts racing in her head as she slowly slumps to the ground.The damp grass soaking the fabric of her jeans.She bows her head down,whether or not in defeat,she doesn't know herself.Everything around her is a blur,the same thing plays in her head like a CD put on repeat.The same words that shook her inside out,shocking her senses!She stares out at the world below her;the city stretched out far across from the spot she was sitting on on top of her hill.Yes,HER hill.No one was supposed to know this spot other than her.It was her sanctuary,the one place she felt secure and safe....

What?

So many thoughts running in my head,
Confusion and wonder ringing although there's no sound.
Words from my heart,now left unsaid,
Pain and tension forms knots and bounds.

I'm still trying to remember and recall,
All the things I said and did,
Before what you told me almost made me fall,
And now I'm trying desperately to hold on.

Who You are to me

Lord,I need You...
With all my flaws and doubts,
You are the One that makes me whole.
No one can compare when it comes to Your love for me.
In my brokenness,I call out Your magnificent name,
My Father,my Creator,my Friend,I'm calling for Thee.
All I want is to see You face to face,
How it will be,I imagine everyday.
Without fail,You pick me up,
You unlock my broken heart.
Without You,I would never have been free,
Without You,I wouldn't be me.
All my hopes,and all my dreams,
You hold in your hands,my tender pleas.

I pray

Lord,I feel so broken up inside.I feel so helpless,Lord.I don't have the strength to hold onto everything in my life on my own,Lord!!I need You,Jesus!I can't stand straight and hold my head high without Your.I can't keep my home without You.Everything seems so 'done',so unchangeable!!!Lord,I know You can and will change it for me according to Your plans!Whatever Your plans are for my family and I,I welcome it with open arms,longing arms.I'm so small without You,Lord.Holy Spirit continue to stir my spirit,to urge me to the right path,right decisions.Continue to minister to my heart,my problems.I love my home,Lord.I love my family,and I know they're hurting inside as well.Jesus,they need YOU!!!No one else can take Your place!!Help them see that,Lord!!!I need them to know You,Your love for them,Your promises for them.I pray Lord,that you give me peace.Help me face this problem bravely and filled with hope and faith in YOU!!There is none like You,GOD!No one...I pray all this is Jesus' precious name,Amen...

See me,please?

Do you see me in the crowd?
As I'm desperate to catch your eye;
Seeing you laugh and smile without me by your side,
Kills me deep inside.

Happy as I am for you,
I cannot help but hope;
For a future that includes me and you,
Inside your golden globe world.

Any second I could fall,
If not for your tiny gestures of care.
As tiny as they may be,
I want them all to be for me.

How can one so great be there a while,
And yet disappear in a magician's cloud?
Dragged away willingly by your wiles,
The you that was never meant for me.

I thought...

I thought you were my friend,
I thought you'd hold onto my hand.
Now a year has passed,
And on your face,there's a mask

True or false,I don't know which,
All I know is it makes you tick.
Whether or not I say it all,
All you do is watch me fall.

You think I'm fake,
Well,no I'm not!
You watch me shake,
Waiting for me to rot.

Gruesome as things are now,
I cling onto my ball of hope.
All I need is for you to know,
I'm sorry,I'm still trying to cope.